Sonnen On PED Use: ‘I’m not going to apologize because I’m not sorry’

“People were saying, ‘why won’t he say he’s sorry?’ I’m not. I’m not going to apologize because I’m not sorry. I’m a consenting adult. I knew exactly what I was doing. This was a premeditated decision.”

“Here’s the problem, is that it worked. The problem is, it helps. There’s a term out there, performance enhancing drug. The reality is, it’s all medicine. All medicine is made to make you better. If it did the opposite, it would be malpractice. You’re not going to the doctor to say give me something to make me worse. i was taking things and they were making me feel a little better.”

“I came from a little bit different time. This isn’t like the guys of now. This is back, when I grew up through the 80s, I would go to the local health food store, your GNC, and I’d take everything on the shelf and hope that something would work, whether you’re talking proteins, whether you’re talking creatines, whatever it might be, if there was a guy on the label and he was big and strong looking, I was begging my mom and dad to buy me that. I have tried everything over the years on the off-chance that something might work. And every now and then you’ll find something that does.

“For me, the litmus test was flawed, but here was my litmus test: Can’t be a steroid, and it’s got to be legal. I can’t take anything I don’t wan’t to be in possession of anything that isn’t legal. What I’m talking about there, I’m not talking about the commissions and their rules, I’m talking about the law. I’m talking about, am I holding something in my possession and then a police officer sees me, am I allowed to have that. If the answer’s yes, then I’m in. That was my test. If I could get this legal, if there’s a legal medication, I’m taking it, I’m not cross-referencing it with the commission. I’m not taking the rules or someone else’s over that of a doctor. That’s what I’d tell myself to sleep well at night.”

“If you’re going to try to get away with something, if you’re beat, you’re beat. There’s nothing more to it, there’s nothing more to the story. I took something, I was caught, I got tarnished and that’s it.”

During the debut episode of his new podcast, Chael P. Sonnen addresses his recent drug testing failure and his thoughts on the entire situation.

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Sonnen’s podcast can be listened to here.