Stephan Bonnar Opens Up About Steroid Usage, Says He Was Close To “Offing” Himself

Multiple time steroid abuser Stephan Bonnar has signed with Bellator MMA, and will fight Tito Ortiz in November, however that doesn’t mean he’s been able to get rid of the past. Most notably, two failed drug tests during his stint with the UFC.

Bonnar spoke with Ariel Helwani on The MMA Hour about his past steroid usage saying:

“It completely blew up in my face. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me. It was the closest to offing myself I’ve ever been. It just sucked. So, anyway. That’s why I’m so jaded now. That’s the reason.”

Bonnar said that he was asked to help a few fighters train for upcoming fights, and that because of his time away from the gym, and given his retirement, he decided there was no harm in steroid usage.

“I haven’t been in the gym. I’m weak, I’m skinny, I got some stem cell procedures done on my knee, I took a lot of time off. I’m like, crap. I’m really injury prone. So it was like, you know what, I have a month before I have to go train. So yeah, I’m not worried about getting tested any more. I’m going to do a cycle of steroids. My goal, to get big and strong. I’m going to eat a lot, lift heavy weights, get big and strong. Don’t have to worry about my cardio, don’t have to worry about making weight, don’t have to worry about getting drug tested. So that’s what I did. I never thought I had to fight again.”

“That’s a terrible way to go out. It definitely is. I can’t even watch it, I’d watch the UFC or fighting and I’d just get depressed. … people would call me a cheater and a piece of s–. You don’t want to be sitting there defending yourself.”